"Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell."----switchfoot

My last entry was all weakness.
Perhaps i am all weakness.
I was dared to move....to pick myself up off the floor.
Sometimes all it takes tenacious (sp?) obedience. Sometimes he uses these days and nights to speak truth into our hearts. I've been thinking a lot about Elijah. I've been thinking about David. I've been thinking about the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I've been wondering about my own value. i discovered that i see myself as a pebble in a land of jewels....which is untruth. The truth that God speaks that we are valuable. There has been a rather high price paid for me. There is more invested in me than i realize....more than Christ's blood even. People i know have invested their valuable resources and time and money and prayer into me. Maybe i am actaully valuable to the planet. (An idea i've never considered.)
I would love to have the power to change things.
I would love know how to spread the love.
I would love to shine.
Maybe i am still being dared to move....but in a bigger way.
The future is big and so far away. I know how Lisa feels. (well, not exactly...i just know that part of how she feels)
I went to go see Coldplay last night. It was good. Hardly intimate, and i hate when people sing along...when uninvited. I did not pay forty bucks to hear suzy halter top sing off key. Whatevs. It was still good. I wasn't disappointed. I love how indie kids and college radio people pretend that they don't actually like Coldplay. Like it would kill them to admit that there is actual talent on commercial radio. I love how people think that they are open-minded to music...but really, they're just snobby. I suppose that is the appeal...and i know that i fall victim to that all the time. It bothers me to admit that i like mainstream music. I kind of like dropping random names, that only us elitist music people would have heard about. I am not above reproach in this.
So i am openly admit that i like the following: Coldplay, Dashboard Confessional (remember when it was COOL to like them?), "complicated", the Dixie Chicks, and Nick Carter.
There. i don't care.
Know what else? These are things i could give a rats ass about: who you hang out with, and what band they're in, the streets, the used, the scene, and guestlist.
sheesh.
I think that i am turning into a square. Before you know it, I'll be listening to Shania. ew.
i must be getting old.